Short story: LIFE INTERVIEW 

Dressed in burey pangtshe gho, black camel shoes in his feet,  combed medium length hair stowards side, he rushes to BBS interview with self assured mental preparation. 7:30 sharp is time for his interview but he already makes up at forum at 7 p.m. as requested by crew and show host of BBS for they needed briefing and a bit of grooming session to appear flawless in front of camera and the viewers. A cameramen very cleverly and beautifully showed magnificent clock tower of Sherubtse College in the background. It is in the basket ball court.  Karma isn't nervous or scared for he viewed it as good opportunity and he very well understand “only thing we have to fear is the word “fear” itself. Besides, it is to talk about himself and his own life. Life’s given him enough experiences and insights to share about.

When clock strikes 7:30, “Kuzu Zangpo and good evening to all the viewers. Today we have very renowned and widely admired professor Karma for Nangi Tam. Hope you will find great time to hear about him and wisdom he has to share. Professor Tashi, very welcome to our show and we are grateful for having spared your personal time with us here on bbs. Now to start from the lighter tone, give us brief introduction about yourself?” was words uttered by interviewer Sonam Ugyen.

Karma: "Good Evening to all the viewers. It’s not huge pleasure to be here on your show. You know why, Sonam?", Sonam was bewildered and speechless staring at Karma. Only was he relieved when with smile Karma said, “It’s rather an honor to be here on your show.” He then proceeded, “I am Karma, professor of Sherubtse College. I teach B.A. Political Science and Sociology. I am from Kilkhorthang, Tsirang. I did my primary, middle and higher schooling at Autsho, Tangmachu and Phuyum respectively. Thereafter i pursued BA.,LLB (Hons.) at NLSIU Bangalore which did not bear a pleasant end. I did my BA, Political Science and Sociology from Sherubtse College. After that I did PGDE at Samtse, joined in teaching for  5 years. Next I obtained masters in Political Science from Jawaharlal Nehru University, Delhi. After coming back to country I served as Professor until now.

Sonam Ugyen: I heard you dropped law school. Why did you discontinue? Is it because you discovered your passion somewhere or did you find law difficult as most people say? Or else are there reasons otherwise?

Karma: Ha ha very good question. Passion? Of course I aspired to be a teacher since my high school days but would always feel uneasy to say “teacher” as my ambition in front of teachers since many of them would say dream bigger and other but not teacher. And of course yes; I found law as difficult and I lost a year in my 2^nd year. My scholarship was withdrawn and I couldn’t afford to continue law on self finance either. Thus, I am made to rationally quit. I must pass within 5 years as per legal bond signed between me and sponsors are concerned. But my failure in 2^nd year breached the contract and scholarship had to be withdrawn. I requested them to give me one more chance to prove my ability and improvement after stating my humble family background but they simply turned their ears deaf. They didn’t take things on compassion ground. I tried to find another sponsors after reaching back to country but to no avail. Hence I had to quit law school forever. However I accepted my failure and self convincing lines, “God has other plans for me and whatever happens happens for the best” and i couldn't agree more with "the world isn't all wish granting factory."

Sonam Ugyen: It was tough luck for you. I am really sorry to hear that. But why did you go for law if your passion was teaching?

Karma: Teaching was my passion but I also believed in picking up whatever comes on my way equally. I took life as a chance to experience. After result of 12 I was so proud of my marks that I didn’t want to be a teacher.  I chose law for it is considered creamy layer of profession in Bhutan. Besides, I have admired to see others study abroad. Perhaps I wasn’t too well set to go for teaching and passion.  I have also looked at financial aspects as a lawyer. One jocular but truthful reason, I dreamed to be someone big since we have none from our family who can lend help and support to parents and relatives. I don’t know but I loved law after I grabbed a bit of taste of it at law school. I came to understand that the basic foundation to peace and stability in a country is law. We in our lives, either as single or collective entity, are bound to follow law in one way or other. Hence I feel it’s great advantage and usage if you understand laws that governs country at least, if not international ones.

Sonam Ugyen interrupts and says, “Why do you think you failed?” Reasons for your failure

Karma: Astrologically, not logically I was told by a foreteller that my “Wang” and “lhung” were all down or bad in my 2^nd year. Speaking background wise, I came from very poor family background and I lacked behind in language as I had not used English as second/first language at home and schools. My parents are illiterate and I am first generation to break that chain of illiteracy. My siblings didn’t reach and cross 10^th standards to guide and advise me. Expectation of college was very high being top ranked law college in India. I never felt like studying during exam time; I did study, though. I used to study before hand, prepare for class in advance but could never study more than once or twice since we are burdened with 4 project works in a trimester. There were viva and other activities going on in campus. I found remembering lengthy syllabus in short period of time an uphill job. Perhaps my method of study wasn’t correct or I fell back intellectually. I didn’t use to consult in times of problem preferring to do it on my own. Those could be reasons.  Later I also realized weak social and emotional intelligence could have contributed too. I feel I had depression, cultural shock and distracted minds that are antithetical to soaking lessons. 

Sonam Ugyen: It seems like you have studied in different places. How was each experiences like?

Karma: Perhaps from Autsho I may have not learned since I was too young to understand. From Tangmachu I learned about value of family since I was a bordering student. From High school at Phuyum I understood value of time, friendship and a bit of life. From NLSIU I discovered there is boredom and loneliness present as age adds by. I got to know that I am introvert, diffident and shy. I realized social and intrapersonal skills are essential in life. From Sherubtse I started covering, curing and correcting mistakes and discoveries I made at NLSIU. As a teacher I learned about importance of patience and hard work to guide students to right direction. I also felt the greatest joy provided by giving is priceless. At masters level I got to comprehend that life goes on so fast that I needed to do something for others which will put smile, sigh of relief and satisfaction to my heart. As a professor I learned about wearing thick skins, letting student discover their own passions, dreams and themselves.  I also understood job of professor is not to cover the syllabus but to uncover the syllabus. I learned after law school when I spend my time at village.  I was obsessed with thought of not being kind, helpful, hospitable, interactive and social. I was depressed sulking and thinking on things I lack and did. I have wanted to change it since at law school but never was it actualized. Gradually with effort and time I learned to interact with people, adjust my smile, interests and discomforts in making them and myself feel good. You may learn theoretically anything but if you are not practical in even one of stuffs there comes the drawback of formal education. I felt a need to teach and reach these lessons to hundreds and thousands of people in future. Role of teacher seemed appropriate beside being my right profession fueled by passion. Both as a teacher and professor I have taught, helped and counseled numbers of students in helping understand themselves emotionally and academically. I also practically help them in lots of stuffs.  I never stop to lecture every 10-15 minutes of lecturing time for giving insights to young and fresh minded students whose life is so promising yet vulnerable. This is why students would come in full room whenever I lecture at Sherubtse College and lecture as guest lecturer in other colleges/institutes of Royal University of Bhutan. Laughter of Tashi is acknowledged by Sonam with additional laughter.

Sonam Ugyen: What sort of insights would you give?

Karma: I tell them whatever you read for class don’t take it as burden and discard off as soon as you get over exams. Read for knowledge, interest, information, wisdom and life. Read beyond syllabus. And I tell them to try coping up with boredom and loneliness for it is present in anybody’s life. Perhaps, after life as well. If you fall prey to it you will try to fill its place by something and there is strong tendency that you will go for substance abuse. Students drink at college since they are hooked by boredom and loneliness. Once abused you will become addicted for it works as short term remedy to problem but impossibility of eliminating loneliness, boredom and problems will increase your dependence on substance. Hence you will ruin your life health wise and use wise. You should rather do something good like hanging out with friends, watching movies, reading books, praying, meditating, going for passion/hobbies and sleeping than substance abuse. One of the important advices I give is to keep moving forward no matter how big problems are. One must never give up on facing with obstacles and losing over it. Winning I tell them is not simply coming as a winner in game because only handful of people would always win in race of life, rest would all lose, some will lose or win at different points of time. So I tell them to be okay when we lose because real winner is the one who takes lose and hits of obstacles yet keeps moving forward. And another advice I give them is learn from parents, copy them, try to replace their place for we don’t have to call them when we need them; message is be independent and responsible. Do what makes you feel good. And I always tell them to go find happiness and pursue it. Being somewhere in territory of hope is what keeps us alive. Thus I tell them to be hopeful in life for it is that hope that keeps us alive. But equally I also warn and caution them to not dream impossible. Those are insights I always leave with students whenever I get a chance to give them one. I wish and hope all who heard me would spread it further without keeping to themselves which in turn would make the world a better place to live in.

Sonam Ugyen: You have very great insights. I wish they stay revolved around the country and pass from generation to generation. You said education system is bad. Would you gracious to embellish on it?

Karma:  Yes but not whole system. Some things can be done to improve our education system. Education at the end of the day should serve humanity. I have always raised a voice suggesting improvements but it hasn’t improved yet. Hence I am filing Public Interest Litigation petition and I hope court would use its wisdom looking and weighing importance of good education system in Bhutan. Our education system is never weak and poor student friendly. Poor here I mean intellectually (both IQ and emotional intelligence) poor. Firstly there should be inclusion of teaching lessons on emotions. Hence we will understand about emotions and philosophy. Of course teachers can read and teach but inclusion of it in syllabus makes everyone compulsorily and necessarily know about it, thus benefiting all. There should be practical lessons taught and made to feel by students. For instance taking them to field trip, making them interact and feel about life in village for those who stay at town and vice versa. Their perspective will change. They should be able to value and respect diversity and equality. Most importantly kids at elementary level should be emotionally nurtured since childhood is a stage where things could be rectified and improved upon. Making people emotionally intelligent is what I felt would make education better one.  Emotional management can be taught and learned by practice, teaching and motivation. Why do you think suicide and substance abuse take place? Student must be both theoretically and practically taught interpersonal and intrapersonal skills. There are highly learned students but are week in daily interaction and affairs of life. And there are those who are academically poor but are good at maintaining and managing emotions doing great at much non-academic stuff and life in general. Well, there are both poor and good in both areas too. I want those two diverging and opposite poles to meet somewhere in the middle and come to the term that will improve life of the students. No students should be left out in ensuring everyone is emotionally sound as much as academically. Remedy to shy, less interactive and introvert students should be sought in making sure everyone is able to raise their voice when in need and enjoying freedom of speech and expressions. They need not waste their twenties stabilizing and realizing about emotional management if they had learned in schools. This would make them have time to do something better one. Beauty will be added to life of each student.

Sonam Ugyen: your last words to audience since we are falling short of time.

Karma: I emphasized on emotional intelligence too much because I was poor manager of emotions. I used to be over emotional at law schools and perhaps after there too. I never talked to friends more than a line and smile. They used to tell me why am I silent and I was depressed of my silence and shyness at NLSIU and anywhere. Whenever I felt emotional I logged myself on facebook ruining my timetables and prospect of becoming lawyer. I felt lonely and emotional wherever I go even after law schools. I am into substance after some point of time for same reason but not addicted. Perhaps I wasn’t alone suffering and battling within myself. So I thought why should I not make people overcome their shyness and understand themselves emotionally well and be happy wherever they go irrespective of income their parents earn, ethnicity they bear or other markers. Lastly I thank bbs to invite me over here. Wish that all of you audience had great time as much as I had talking to you here and I hope you will find great time in reading the book I will soon publish, “TRUTH OF LIFE”. Buy and read it. Have a great night.

Then chapter of “Nangi Tam” interview closes by Sonam Ugyen waving good night and thanking Mr. Karma for his time. Karma comes smiling a bit after having poured few useful insights of life. He drives back to resident, relax a bit, interacts with 3 orphans that he adopted as a son and daughters and go to his work. He is unmarried at 52. His daughters are in their first years and his son studies in 2^nd year at Sherubste College. He allowed his kids to call him by name “Karma” but they never stopped calling him “DAD” too. His kids tell they had great time watching his interview. They dine together and get back to respective chamber to do homework and reading. He doesn’t have to check on if they are doing real homework because he had done the checking for 3-7 years when those kids are brought first time to his home. Now they are already habituated and inspired. He was able to do whatever he needed to undistracted. 

He was very happy and hopeful about everything in life but he secretly feared death. Perhaps fear of decay and ephemeral nature of things on earth has made him the human being that he was and is. He is a religious person. He prays after having prepared for first class to begin tomorrow for first years. He just needs to introduce what is political science and outline syllabus briefly. He prays before going to bed to lie hopefully to see sun of tomorrow. On that tomorrow whenever he opens his eyes first, gave him the maximum and the greatest happiness of all. Thanking the day he sticks to morning prayers and reading news. He would underscore important news he finds and shares, discuss and debate in the class. Thus making the lessons he taught relevant and dynamic.

Besides teaching he has his own NGO to look after as a founding President. That “CHANGING AND GROOMING YOUTH.” NGO looks after least fortunate, rejected, psychopaths, orphanage kids and youths. He took his NGO with a vision, “every youth in this country should breath and feel same”, with mission “to educate and nurture vulnerable youth to make a country better place to live in.” he knew those problems will never be to zero but reduced. To be orphan would not be anyone’s choice yet it isn’t in our hands solely.  There shall be orphans always. He sees himself smiling when he sees kids smiling who otherwise would have had no privilege to do so if they had nowhere to go to. He would make personal visit to them, chat and interact with them. They would feel his comfort and warmth calling him “DAD” whenever they see him. 

Does he need to be married to be called as DAD? Whenever people asked him, “Why didn’t you marry? Don’t you believe in love and marriage?’ he would answer, “I am married to my life and work and I have found love I gave to youth very long time back and I don’t necessarily expect love in return so long they give them to others. And when all those unfortunate and vulnerable kids are eliminated  shall I marry.

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KARMA……….MYSTERIOUS KARMA (Short Story)

                                                            -Tashi Dorji

Karma's having tough time trying to remember faces, details and memories of person and things that he felt he should know or that is triggering his mind to try remembering. Everyone he sees is new and alien to him. He was introvert since his childhood days and he found it hard being social, hanging out and getting along with others. Whenever he goes in gathering he would remain seated at corner battling within himself for being boring and jerk. He would envy when he sees others life going colorfully especially socially since he has life aloof and lefted out even when in crowd. He deeply self pitied himself for infinite number of times. That disturbing thoughts, remorse and guilt of not being able to step out of comfort zone is making him hard to cope up with his already weak social intetaction and demeanour. The thought that people may brand him as bad person disturbs and takes his peace of mind. Though he secretely and desperstely wanted to change himself, never was it a success. He's trying hard. Prayers are offered and wishes are asked for and he was waiting for the answers. Sometimes due to his ego and arrogant nature blended with absence of patient, he feels frustrated with god for taking so long in answering his prayers. He would feel guilty later on. After all God was what he would embrace and cherish in times of loneliness, boredom and emotional carry away stirred by his being introvert and shy and nature of life itself.

Mr. Neten and Mrs. Dema are having same difficult time as Karma in trying to bring their child Karma's memory back. It was not few weeks from Karma's accident in a car. After his accident, as told by doctor and psychiatrist, he was suffering from what is called "retrograde amnesia". Psychiatrist told memory may be revived with time. "Hope and prayers are you can do apart from what doctors can do," was piece of encouragement provided by doctor to Karma's parents, Dema and Neten. Memory may not return was also what doctor should have said but saw no need for it.

At Autsho valley Karma is finding hard to live and place was so unfamiliar to him and his introvert and shy nature intensified his loneliness and apathy. He often felt he should take assistance of liquor and cigarette but he consoled himself not to since it wasn't far from accident day and he needs to endure some more hardship and patience to cure completely, mentally and physically. Mountain locked from all directions, abundant pine tree and the cold harsh winter of Autsho aggravated his isolated and alienated sense. People around never stopped giving him love, care and assistance for improving his health. They console, advise and try to narrate those past instances in order to make him remember people, events and memories. He felt uneasy confronting and meeting new people. He would mostly confine himself in a room.

Neten and Dema had one and only child Karma. They are well to do household. Dema runs bar and Neten is a contractor and Karma was helping his father who had no education background. Karma has B.Com degree obtained from Gedu College of Business Education. It was 3 years after Karma's graduation and into work with dad. Dad's ideas, skills and experiences in addition to Karma's intelligence and theoretical knowledge broadened their wealth and prosperity. Besides, both work sincerely, faithfully, loyally and with passion. However in amidst of those beautiful story, such unpredictable and unexpected tragedy happened. It was also happened when least expected. There wasn't any impact on their business, though. They still keep their bar opened and dad goes to contract work as they logically understood Karma will anyway need to be at home and that's where mom stays, 24*7 unless there are emergency and urgency that would compel her to move. Their son Karma's childhood friends till their way to graduation, Dorji also comes and helps Karma. Dorji's parents run shop at Autsho. Dorji didn't qualify RCSC exam even after trying for two consecutive times. He took break before third time till he feels he's ready to give. But that one chance is his last chance and fate to decide weather he will work in private or government job. He can participate in being Member of Parliament and local governance post nevertheless but there never is guarantee to win. Karma's ten years old back girl friend Phuntsho Choden is also back to Autsho as a teacher of Autsho Middle Secondary School. Her dad is an engineer in D.O.R. She was born at Autsho and at age 15 her dad was transferred to Chang Gedaphu, Thimphu. He still lives there. It was at Thimphu she met another Karma who had same twin like looks and apoearance as Karma of Autsho. Karma of Thimphu met with accident in same place Karma of Autsho encountered accident, somewhere at Tang, Bumthang. Karma of Thimphu was going on tour as an agriculture officer. He wants to research on double cultivation of paddy a year at Odzorong for fortnight. Karma of Autsho was heading to Thimphu to participate in tender for building Wambur Higher Secondary School, Wambur, Lhuntse conducted by MOE.

After accident Karma of Thimphu was picked up from a base area where accident took place. Neten mistakingly took Karma of Thimphu for his own blood and son Karma of Autsho. Karma of Thimphu was struck in-between trunks of two small trees and was pulled out by search team, police of Bumthang. He was unconscious and bloody. There were hits, cut and abrasion on his head and other body parts. Karma of Autsho was also at base of area but police force couldn't find him out. They searched everywhere in and around a place of accident. He wasn't unconscious but mentally insane caused by injury he received on his head. He walked till he could reach to one of the houses from two to three kilometres from place of accident. In that house one illeterate, uneducated and isolated old man lives there. He doesn't know world beyond his area. When he saw Karma mad he didn't know to take him to hospital for treatment but kept him at his house. There were three or four neighbours and they are no different to old man, Kala. When Toyota car fell his head received hard hit. He was thrown away from the car but his body parts weren’t injured except his arms. He hurt his arm while trying to hold posture and ensure protection and least harm to his head. Thus he saved his head from direct hit on ground which may prove fatal. He actually walked for help but suddenly he felt the whole world is spinning. There was deep pain inside head and he was holding his head. He felt his brain is bursting and spinning. He got mad when all these happened. He was taken care, sheltered and fed by old Kala. Kala and villagers thought Karma was outcasted and rejected mad boy. Hence they all agreed to keep him there. They never knew he can be treated medically or spiritually or by combination of both. They neither had television and radio to listen to news of lost Karma.

Karma of Thimphu feeling alienated at Autsho was comforted and eased on seeing Phuntsho Choden. At Thimphu, not so long back, he proposed her but she never accepted his proposal for she found him boring due to his introvert, shy and silent nature. Karma of Thimphu was 4 years at Thimphu doing job. Phuntsho was at Thimphu for ten years. She used to live with parents. However after acquiring job she stayed with parents only for 2 years and moved to Motithang from Chang Gedaphu to live all by herself for the sake of reducing the distance that she has to daily travel. She and Karma of Thimphu lived in a same building. When she saw him for the first time she talked to him without any hesitation with smile thinking he was Karma of Autsho, her childhood friend and the boyfriend. He greets her back by pushing and stretching his lips as far as it would go but with doubts in his mind, "Who the hell is this beautiful girl." When she asked him whether he is Karma or not he answered affirmatively. She told, "We are childhood friends of Autsho. Aren't we? And you have grown so big and handsome. It's been really long we haven't seen each other." Since he cherished and captured her overwhelming beauty he couldn't put himself in a position to share the truth. His shy and hesitant nature might have also contributed to holding himself back.

It wasn't a week that Karma of Thimphu and Phuntsho first meet despite living in same building. Karma of Thimphu fell for her on very first sight which kept his eyed unblink for very long time. Yet his diffident nature made him hard to reveal his feelings for her. His same face as Karma was blessing in disguise to have meets and hang out time together.

Karma of Autsho and Phuntsho never contacted after Phuntsho left Autsho to Thimphu, Chang Gedaphu. Phuntsho was shocked to see tremendous change with Karma. She thought he was very active, open, talkative and kind of guy that she would like to hang around with during childhood days at Autsho. She even told Karma of Thimphu once, "you look matured now and you have changed a lot. What changes do you see in me?" Karma of Thimphu wittily replied, "You look same but have grown height wise and beauty wise" which contradicts with his inner thought.  His mind ask him, which he kept to himself, "why the hell would you torture poor guy. When have I seen you before? I wish i have seen you." He wanted to reveal the truth about the real identity of him but accident was faster than right time to reveal.

At Autsho are they to continue friendship they shared at Thimphu? Or due to retrograde amnesia did he forget her? He could recollect and remember few memories of ten years back, 2005. Immediate memories, 2005 and onwards memories are all lost. He was raised by his uncle after his mom left him at the age of 13. His father left him, his sister and mom after divorce. His dad was rich. He paid alimony and maintenance of child's amount in one go (lump sum) in front of judge when court found him liable at mistake. Court found their marriage as irretrievable breakdown of marriage in addition to void and illegal marriage carried on by his with another girl. That girl wasn't last. His mom wasn't first either. But law of land would not allow him to go for 5th one and he is bound to stick to 4th wife or illegally carry on further. In absence of his parents, particularly mom, he found it hard to go on with his life as normally as kids who have either both or single parent(s). Hence shyness, silence and child like mind of him haunted him, even after he earned a job; hangover lasted. He went through torture and hardship being at uncle's home where he and his older sister were seggregated from son and daughter of uncle. However they managed to let them study. Hence two of them looked after them after getting their own jobs despite childhood bitter memories for they considered given opportunity to educate was huge gift they (uncle and aunt) have given. And their good treatment brought remorse to uncle's and aunt's minds. His sister and he studied hard when uncle, HM and government provided huge and precious opportunity. They are given monthly stipend, belongings and articles required at schools organized by ADM and zimpoen. They never wasted resources, care, time, effort and opportunity and they worked their butts off. They graduated successfully and acquired a job of Agriculture officer and HRO.

Phuntsho Choden was shocked to hear about Karma's accident. She hasn't heard at the time of accident for she was at Thimphu then busy discharging formalties of transfer. For her anyway either Karma meant one and the same. She consoled and promised parents of Karma of Autsho to help them for sick Karma. She would narrate story of their childhood stages and nostalgia to which Karma of Thimphu has absolutely no reason under any sort of circumstances to remembee; even with his memory. But he believed he has amnesia and hence forced himself to believe in whatever people, especially close knit ones, say. That was his commitment to himself.

He was delighted when he first saw Phuntsho for he will never remember their recent meet at Thimphu as long as memories are not revived. His natural impulse and heart or her beauty's power made him lost to her on every first sight. There is another opportunity to propose. Phuntsho would sometimes narrate how they have spent time at Thimphu at Motithang and Main town. Karma of Autsho's mom would not say anything to what Phuntsho say even if she found out to be lies because she is preoccupied by notion that she is making every possible steps and ways to bring memories of Karma back. On the other hand Phuntsho's words have truth because she did meet Karma at Thimphu not very long time back and it was those memories at Thimphu he was sharing with Karma at Autsho. But Dema was also so right since she has his son Karma of Autsho at Autsho or somewhere but not at Thimphu. So if judge has to decide on truth of these two persons, i guess, decision will not favour anyone and scale will weigh equal unless identity is clarified.

At first when Karma of Thimphu opened his eyes at hospital he didn't recognize Neten and Dema but gradually he consoled and convinced himself against his real feeling that they are his own parents. His remote memories that he remembers were considered illusion or imagination created by his mind caused by sickness. He kept note of everyone he saw and talks with. With time he got familiar with people of Autsho but his lost memories are never returning and his remote memories were with effort deleted. No incidents, remedies and ideas taken to help him seemed futile. He really wanted to remember everything especially time spent with Phuntsho. Her remaining new to him makes him sad, frustrated and cry. He loved Phuntsho. He wanted to tell her that he loves her but his shy and hesitant nature plus story of rejection at Thimphu narrated to him by Phuntsho were holding him back from vomiting his feelings to her. He was sick by unrequitted love. His nature of shyness and quiteness made him undergo depression treatment. Karma was feeling, "It's like i was born yesterday and i remember nothing at all. God help me please. Take my depression and return my memories back." He started praying to many gods (Christian, Hindu, Muslim, Judaism and Buddhist) after he browsed about god to pass his time. His prayer to get rid of depression was answered after medication and surgery but memories never returned back. He felt comfortable opening up himself, being good, social and happy guy like how real Karma of Autsho was. Neten and Dema were extremely happy and excited to see character of their son returning back. They considered returning of character as memories. People would say, “That’s our real Karma." More days added on, it became a month, months added on and it became a year. He adopted and adapted, with conviction induced in his mind, to environment, people, work, things and past memories of Karma of Autsho. His mental picture created by imagination propelled by people's narration got concretized in his brain. He got closer to people of Autsho and intimate with Phuntsho with years adding on. Phuntsho who didn't accept proposal by Karma of Thimphu at Thimphu now accepted proposal at Autsho and they got married. Personality, character, demeamour and attitue were what Phuntsho loved and it is evident from her accepting proposal after Karma's change. They bore kids. Karma worked with Neten, business prospered and sun of peace, happiness and prosperity returned and shone back to family.

On the other end of the world uninterrupted misery continued. The real Karma of Autsho remained lost in the name of Karma of Thimphu. Sister and relatives did funeral rituals and everything that needed to be done in the name of Karma of Thimphu who in fact is existing at Autsho. They cried, grieved and missed him tenderly. They blamed themselves and his and their fate. They would say, “He has sad story in childhoof days and didn't even have a chance to experience happy story after start." Positive prayers and varieties of wholesum acts performed in his name by sister, friends, and relatives of Karma of Thimphu multiplied happiness, prosperity, popularity and well being of Karma, Phuntsho, kids, Neten and Dema at Autsho. Karma of Autsho remained insane with old chap, Kala. There were no signs of his improvement. His life which is as precious as gold and his primary goal of life to practice Dharma at age of 55 went as total waste.  

TASHI DROJI

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