I Am Happy, I Don’t Want Change

This life is so beautiful,

Hadn't I been born,
I would have not enjoyed beauty of nature,

I would have not seen sunlight,

I would have not got opportunity to smile,

I would have not shade tears of happiness,

I would have not made friends, elders and family,

I wouldn't have an instance of happy moments with friends,
Friends wouldn't have replaced family,
Teachers wouldn't have replaced parents,
I would have never gotten to be where I actually belong.
So lucky am i.

Yes, had I been not blessed,
I would have never gotten to be engaged in many things,

I would have never got privilege to be talkative,

My not being confined to room would have been absent,

My tendency to understand everything would be missing,

My golden life of not missing anyone would be missing,

My ability to do what I feel like doing would not be there,

My intense yet happy inside look would not be there. 
My fully lived life wouldn't have been there,
My flexible neck to look around would have been missing,
My only choice of being what i had been would have been absent.

You Can be Relatively Happy

I think, everything in this world is not absolutely fair, though it might be relatively fair since world itself exist unfairly. It too has a life of its own. In a like manner we have also do have limited period to live on this earth which is not our choice or in our control. Good and bad come together like a coin with two sides. For instance when i become good in one thing, i become bad or unknown to other stuffs. Corruption while bad on the face of it, is sometimes helpful for those in need. E.g. when someone is dearly sick and if you have no means of getting him/her treated due to problems like deep economic crisis in country which doesn't give you enough money for loan, neighbors, families and friends turns deaf to borrowing or they don't have sufficient to give it you leaving you in lurch, etc. In such case where do you get the money from? The only option you would have is either to do crime or procure corrupt means of getting the money or else you let someone dear to you die and lose his/her one and precious life right in front of your own eyes helplessly. Then you try to misappropriate government's money which is people's money. So corruption in such situation has two faces: good for needy ones and bad for maximum. Since life of maximum is important than few, we try to ban it for the greater good of greatest number. That is why i say it is relatively just and not absolutely fair. Nailing corruption to the ground is fairer than encouraging since many are directly or indirectly benefited at cost of few. If all are beneficiaries, then ban of corruption is totally just which would never happen unless things existing on this earth is only corruption and nothing else. When we look after poor/needy ones by breaking laws, policies and rules which is of great help for them, we did something morally good. On the contrary if the letters of the law is broken society can hardly remain solidified and one since laws in both written and unwritten forms regulate human conducts through protective, rehabilitative, punitive and compensatory means.

Likewise things in life are just the way corruption is. There always is duality of good and bad. When we are befriending with friends and closed ones, who remain strangers to unknown. When you do something productive in this life, you are sacrificing generations of life to come and equally other way around. So just be aware of it, respect other's view, respect and cherish your own views and ideas, feel good in what you do and the way you are since one thing is as good as other in its own way, and try discarding your pessimistic attitude which always makes you derive multiple meanings from the possible singe/few meaning(s). But when i give example of corruption, i didn't mean expropriating money for non-necessary purpose. Corruption in extreme need and helpless condition seems relatively justifiable. Basically what i want to convey is, live your life contented and satisfied. I know living contented life kills hope, dreams and goals but it at least keeps smile on your face presently and if you have happy present all the time, consider future too would be the same since future is construction of many present moments after giving way to past.

BRIEF ACCOUNT OF WHAT I SAW AND FELT

I was born in 1992 when political crisis and civil unrest happened in the country. It was the time where the problem of anti-national, demonstration, resurgence and government's control took place. But fortunately i don't know anything about it since i was just born. Only greatest trouble in the country i remember was in 2003 when anti-Indian citizens tried to settle in Bhutan to build up their numbers and strength, Indian government demanded them to be evicted from our land or they will declare war from their side which would have post great threats on our land and people. Choice-less was our government, so we had to declare war on 15th December when the day was auspicious and astrologically precise for the war to start off. Within the two days the war got over. ULFA, BODO, KLO, etc. are not resurgent or rebellion of Bhutan but they are rebellion of India. They oppose and revolt against India government because in most of their areas where they live, development was just a dream for them and central government of India didn't give any attention and Northeast earn region of India is still the most undeveloped states in India. So that is how people started forming into groups as a rebel against the government. I need not go into mach detail. We were safe mainly our guardian deities and tripple gem helped us in blessing our prayers offered by people of the whole country who were in great tense when our fourth majesty went to war as a leader/commander (of course he is commander constitutionally).

Then came the day of peace in 2005 whereby 4th Majesty announced firstly in Yangtse Dzongkhag that he will step aside to give place for his young son in order for him to get experience. He did that because he himself had experiences having suffered since his young age when his father passed away. In 2008 coronation took place and our present Present king came to the throne and it was great day for we Bhutanese to see both father and son existing together in monarchical system. In 2010 royal wedding took place and tears rolled when i saw joyous and beautiful occasion taking place. Very remarkable thing happened in 2008 was we got democracy in our Country. No matter, how fraudulent it is, it still is the best form of government preferred by most of the countries in the world. It is the most valuable and gracious we the people of Bhutan could get. So exercise your rights of democracy which gives you many rights, freedom, liberties and responsibilities. But i don't mean such human values didn't exit before that but from 2008 such rights became more solidified and concrete where every affected citizen can use it as a legal tool for battle. First democratic govt. was elected in 2008 and lasted till 2013 and presently we have PDP as a govt. after defeating former govt. (DPT) in second round of election in 2013. We hope our history of country will be smooth and nice one. Let's all contribute to the service of the nation by leaving aside our personal desires and goals for the sake of people of Bhutan. I look forward to Bhutan growing from strength to strength. I want sun of peace shine forever in the country. My judgment is one sided and i avoided another side for the great good of greatest number of people of Bhutan. 

But it's quite disappointing to see in social media that many youths (specially) and civil servants are commenting and criticizing so much on the incumbent government. I am not unhappy because people blame only present government but i was shocked on analyzing that it has become sort of attitude of people to blame on government. They even blamed previous government. From right, left and centre, they try to pull government's leg in every best possible way. I do not deny the existence of legitimacy of criticism in democratic form of government and people have every right to it. But rather i was shock to see, no positive comment is being made. Whatever new agenda or plans are proposed or works are done by government, they directly go into negative comments. And when someone tries to correct that they are wrong, they jump to the conclusion that whoever tries to correct them from blaming excessively is supporter of present government. Once i also commented them to criticism based on legitimacy. Their criticism seem to be very rebuking. I am sometimes reminded of what former education minister (Thakur Singh Powdell) said, "there is nothing good in Bhutan, if something exist in Bhutan, then it is bad things and badmouthing about others." It seems very true but there would still be some who try to thank from their inner heart yet keep unexpressed. It's saddening to hear what Former Prime Minister Jigme Y. Thinley said during panel with party's  after President after presidential debate, "There was never an instance (or instances) where i went home from my office without worry, tension and sense of concern for people. And when we see people blaming on what we do, we feel really bad and sad to go home." We never seem to understand that. Of course there would be some MPs who would be different person and deserve blame. We are all fallible. To elect right person is our own rights and privileges. And i constantly remind them not to blame what they do and when they do not fulfill desire of people, because it's just starting year and there are still 4 years to go. So many things can happen within  four years. If only little things happen or nothing is worth as promised, then we can use our right to throw them out in next election. In democracy people are active and have rights only during election and that rights should not be misused to oneself in a position to blame on what one has voted earlier. 

On the contrary i m happy to see, people are becoming more aware of the new system of government and in time to come, they will know even more and will be able to help government in governing well and correctly.    

TIRED AND TEMPORARY DREAM

Somehow i find myself tired today in the afternoon because of deprivation of sleep i had the last night because i had an assignments to be submitted today. I tried dozing and closing eyes and it took some time for my eyes to get completely shut and my brain to rest and notice

nothing else. Nearly after 20-30 minutes of lying on the bed trying to put myself to sleep, finally i was not in reality. "I was home but at different unknown places with whole lot of my family members present and i was too excited by the dreams since meeting all the families together at same place is something that would rarely happen. So i had reason to be happy. I saw my friend inviting me and being with me with her smile on face with her three friends. Three of them were living with my cousins and relatives home which is half-an-hour of distance from my home but i don't know how that happened in dream for in reality it could never be true. When i went there i was welcomed and all my brother-in-laws too came later on to my cousin's home including ex bro-in-law of mind (my sister's husband) except my dad and mom. Parents of mine are missing in my dream. In the middle of the dream and half-conscious mind built for things were real, i had to open my eyes to see it's six o'clock in the evening. Though my sleep would have continued if i were to closed my eyes, i decided to wake up since my felt the need to go to refresh myself and i kind of feel thirsty as well.

For no reason or strange reason the tears automatically rolled down from my eyes on realizing that what i enjoyed was not reality and even that false existence too has no place in my life. How would those blind people be feeling after they get up from their pleasant dreams? And impermanence and fallibility directly stroke my mind and i had to cry for a while. I prayed for things to be alright and that's how strange i was and i would be. Though dream is so random, funny, untrue and emotional we sometimes have to fool ourselves by believing in dream.