I MUST BE MAD

Reminded was I to not crave for anything,

I was inspired by words of instructor very much,

Rebirth would be cursed and bad with craving,

Hence first we offer before using it,

You no doubt became object of offering,

Yet I am not able to offer with higher frequency,

I am craving for your beauty or way you are,

I may have to pay the price later,

My impulse is really strong to let you go,

Now you appear in my dreams and thoughts,

Even in the class I slyly watch you,

Only to satisfy when I am able to see you,

Contented only when our eyes meet,

Paradise on earth would it be if,

You understand my feelings and requite my love,

I badly want to approach you,

Yet I turn blank whenever I see you,

Unlike few meets before I fell for you,

I can’t talk to you without subject or issue,

I feel something missing when our class ends,

So much possessive I am becoming,

My mind’s losing its control,

I feel emotional when I imagine introducing you,

To my dear mother who I imagine had waited for this day,

Being in same class has both pros and cons,

It delayed my approach as I can’t stand rejection,

Yet you don’t miss to see her once a day at least.

Background is what I hate to talk,

I possess very low self-esteem,

I am afraid she would be unfortunate,

To have unfortunate person like me,

I console all my doubts and suspicions by,

The line “love shouldn’t have condition”. 

13/10/2013