TIRED AND TEMPORARY DREAM

Somehow i find myself tired today in the afternoon because of deprivation of sleep i had the last night because i had an assignments to be submitted today. I tried dozing and closing eyes and it took some time for my eyes to get completely shut and my brain to rest and notice

nothing else. Nearly after 20-30 minutes of lying on the bed trying to put myself to sleep, finally i was not in reality. "I was home but at different unknown places with whole lot of my family members present and i was too excited by the dreams since meeting all the families together at same place is something that would rarely happen. So i had reason to be happy. I saw my friend inviting me and being with me with her smile on face with her three friends. Three of them were living with my cousins and relatives home which is half-an-hour of distance from my home but i don't know how that happened in dream for in reality it could never be true. When i went there i was welcomed and all my brother-in-laws too came later on to my cousin's home including ex bro-in-law of mind (my sister's husband) except my dad and mom. Parents of mine are missing in my dream. In the middle of the dream and half-conscious mind built for things were real, i had to open my eyes to see it's six o'clock in the evening. Though my sleep would have continued if i were to closed my eyes, i decided to wake up since my felt the need to go to refresh myself and i kind of feel thirsty as well.

For no reason or strange reason the tears automatically rolled down from my eyes on realizing that what i enjoyed was not reality and even that false existence too has no place in my life. How would those blind people be feeling after they get up from their pleasant dreams? And impermanence and fallibility directly stroke my mind and i had to cry for a while. I prayed for things to be alright and that's how strange i was and i would be. Though dream is so random, funny, untrue and emotional we sometimes have to fool ourselves by believing in dream.